1) Eat 80% vegetables and fruits, 20% — the other food groups. Keep your body alkaline, not acidic. Fresh spinach will improve your mood….eat lots of dark greens! V-8 juice. Eat vegetables with lots of Vitamin A — carrots, etc. If you **** greens, then at least get yourself a green supplement like Green Edge that you can mix in fruit juice.

2) Exercise 3 times a week — at least 15 mins of cardiovascular exercise per day.

3) Spend at least 20 mins a day in the sun — this stimulates certain parts of the brain and increases Vitamin D

4) Take a B-100 vitamin Complex capsule daily.

5) Take 250 mg of magnesium oxide or magnesium citrate/day once a day — this will improve your nervous system by increasing the level of electrolytes in your blood, thereby making you happier. It will also improve the function of your heart.

6) Take the herb called Damiana several capsules several times a day for your depression. It will also improve your *** drive. I think it works better than St. John’s Wort.
Take one good mineral supplement like NOW brand’s Full Spectrum Minerals.

9) Eat a bowl of old-fashioned oatmeal every day. You can sweeten it and add cinnamon, ginger, and raisins. This will also improve your *** drive.

10) Listen to HayHouseRadio (dotcom) on the Internet — free downloadable podcasts to help you re-balance your mind. I recommend Wayne Dyer’s show on Living in Inspiration.

11) Get the sleep you need.

12) Avoid artificial stimulants like coffee, sugar, amphetamines, and nicotine which only working by temporarily stimulating the adrenal glands. In the long run, they do more damage than good. And please, please, please, don’t waste your time taking medications for your brain. They have tons of side effects like suicidal tendencies. They are completely foreign chemicals that stress the body’s kidneys and liver. Most likely, you are completely normal…but you just aren’t getting the nutrition your body craves.

13) Listen to music that makes you feel happy! Music is the lamp that lights the soul.

14) Write about your feelings…analyze exactly why you feel depressed. Does your depression have its roots in some external situation dealing with friends, family, or society? It really doesn’t sound that way.

15) Have your thyroid checked. It may be underactive even if a doctor tells you it isn’t. Do you frequently get cold? An underactive thyroid is a common problem today due to all of the perchlorate from the rocket fuel settling on our crops. Perchlorate a powerful oxidant used in solid rocket fuels by the military and aerospace industry has been detected in public drinking water supplies of over 11 million people at concentrations of at least 4 parts per billion (ppb). High doses of perchlorate can decrease thyroid hormone production by inhibiting the uptake of iodide by the thyroid. You can assist your thyroid by taking dulse, available at the health food store.

16) Drink purified reverse osmosis water. Don’t drink chlorinated, fluoridated, aluminized city water that has traveled through miles and miles of metal pipes.

17) Take Eleuthero, a Siberian adaptogenic herb that will help normalize your moods.

18) Spirulina and Chlorella from the sea can also help improve your health.

Anyway, if you need other ideas on curing your depression naturally, check out Prescriptions for Nutritional Healing by Balch.

You can also check out the website called Curezone for other ideas to naturally help yourself without wasting tons of money and precious time.

And finally, I’m not a doctor, but I have had success in dealing with sadness that doesn’t seem to be rooted in anything in particular.

Maybe you’re trying the wrong meds and the wrong therapists, or maybe you aren’t depressed. That was my problem–I kept getting put on these antidepressants and send to these ‘woe is me’ psychologists, until finally they were like ‘Oh, you’re bipolar. My bad’, and now I’m fantastic. In fact, antidepressants and the wrong therapy can increase the worst parts of bipolar disorder.

Also, you seem so very angry. You’re going outside and running into all of these walls and getting more pissed every time. Maybe all of these things aren’t working because you haven’t worked on the intrinsic stuff enough yet. You have to try to get better, and it sounds a lot like you’re like **** this, it won’t work. **** that, it ended up a bunch of bullshit, before you give it a chance. Do you go for some exercise everyday? Even 5 minutes at a walking pace will do you wonders (again, proven). Do you have some hobbies that you really enjoy that you take some time out to do every day? Have you tried taking Vitamin B or Magnesium–sometimes that’s the cause of a lot of people’s depression, their body needs some? Ever tried meditating (doesn’t mean you’re religious, it just brings focus and clarity to the mind–again, proven health benefits)? Listen to yourself now and then, and even if it’s hard to walk around the block everyday and clear your mind for twenty minutes with meditation, get your little **** out there and WORK to feel better.

I don’t feel like I’m the vulnerable prey of anyone. Every therapist I’ve met so far has been wonderful (although that doesn’t mean they all are). Have you gone further enough in the ranks? General practitioners can diagnose depression and give you meds, but usually they don’t know much about it. Psychologists and psychotherapists generally know nothing about the chemical aspect of depression. Psychiatrists are the top of the food chain, and sometimes I wonder why they didn’t just send me straight there in the first place, they are magical. Seriously. They’re more expensive, but I could spend 6 sessions tops with one and be on my way to life instead of the 83902 other appointments and hundreds of dollars i spent on the wrong meds from a GP.

Anyways, I hope I helped at least a little. Oh, and I’m so glad you’re out of the religious bullshit–it means you’re still in there somewhere (even though depression makes it seem like you’re not). I’m just as bitter about all of that religious reliance as you sound in your entire question Good luck.

I learned how to laugh again by stopping taking myself so seriously and realizing I have a choice on how I view the world the things that happen to me. I’ve learned to give myself the grace to make mistakes. I’ll never be perfect it’s ok. Neither is anyone else.

There are still times I get into a deep funk for days don’t even want to dress or bathe. Those days I have to force myself to even bother with getting up. I don’t want to find myself doing inward battle as if 2 people reside inside. But I do it because I don’t enjoy being depressed like you I don’t like the feeling when I’m on meds.

You’re not emotionally weak. It can be a chemical imbalance or just you’re view experiences of the world you live in. Seeking help is a strength, not a weakness. You must know that because you haven’t given up on seeking help smart enough to know when it’s not working. Give yourself some credit here.

But the biggest help for me has been getting involved in helping others. It’s hard to stay depressed when you focus on the needs of others. Especially those unable to help themselves.

My advice:

Stay away from the wonder drugs,

follow your faith,

cherish the bonds you have with your friends and family,

and make sure to take some time out of your week to do something that brings happiness to your life

Express yourself – bottled up emotions are unhealthy. Maybe take up a hobby such as pottery or painting, or even an instrument.

Whatever you do – communicate with people. Friends help us up when we’re down.